I let a bunch of other competitive “professional” photographers (in an organization) squash me, silence me, crush me. I regret that. I got bullied. I took less and less photos. I went into hiding. I quit. I let friends and family tell me I could not be a photographer. I broke their hearts by taking better images. I got bullied. I listened. I could not handle breaking the dreams of others who had wanted to pursue photography but didn’t. I quit. I let a group of dog trainers and dog professionals gossip and try to destroy my dog photography Facebook page and phoDOGraphy business. They spread the word in a small town that I cost too much. (I had charged too little and went broke doing so). I quit. I got cancer. I immediately changed all my social profiles and removed “photographer” and “iPhoneographer” and “travel photographer” (wanna be). I couldn’t see how I could travel and be a photographer on the road and have cancer and be in treatment. I quit.
All this crazy thinking and shrinking thinking smaller behaviours and quitting to please others has lead me to …
Today. Lesson learned. I begin again.
xxoo Brenda Johima
I have a new opinion of what a “professional” photographer (which I have never called myself) is … they don’t bully other “wanna-be’s” as they call it, into submission. They encourage, they motivate, they inspire, they remember where they came from when they began, they know that their words and actions displayed to those starting out, ARE their brand and affect their own reputation. They know that anybody may refer them work and clients … even possibly the “wanna be” that they bullied.
It’s been over a year since I have posted to this blog.
I told myself that I would never be a blogger who blogs just because you are “supposed” to.
Writing … and life, has to have meaning for me, and … especially if you are putting it out to the entire world to read.
So I have waited and waited for something to light enough fire under me that I felt it was worth writing about. It was a long, long break.
Now, I write again. It’s time.
I’ll be blogging about my breast cancer journey over here: brendajohima.CA (note the .ca)
I’ll be back to fill you in on what’s upcoming on this website! This space will remain a creative smorgasbord for all that I do … I write, I paint, I speak and teach, and make photos with mobile devices (mostly iPhone) and also my big girl cameras, my DSLR’s. My focus and niche, is 150% whatever I am immersed in, at the moment, and I love it that way!
For the purists who only want to view my photography, I’m launching a separate portfolio website where you can view and purchase images.
Stay tuned, and I’ll be back soon!