Nature’s Complexity

On November 11, 2017, in BLOG, by brendajohima

 

If I Had One Regret

On November 8, 2017, in BLOG, by brendajohima

If I had one regret, it would be having listened to other people instead of myself, to my own intuition, and to my own gut.

Other people don’t know you, and they may be wrong, and they may not be able to see what you can see in the future, and they may not feel to the depths that you do, and they may not live in the world of the unknown and the unknowable as you do, and they may not be the risk takers that you may be.

Other people may be competitive and consciously or unconsciously be competing with you, undermining your success and goals.

Have you ever gone to the “wrong” people for advice? Often? Regularly? Usually good and loving family members, friends, colleagues, all mean well and they all want to help us. But they aren’t us. They do not know you, to the depths of your being. Only you do.

By going to the people for advice that you know cannot help you, it is like regularly going to drink from an empty well. You will get dehydrated and not feel so great.

Listen to yourself. Always be your own first wise counsel.

Your heart, mind, soul, gut, spirit and body can always guide you and are far wiser and more powerful than anything else out there. The Universe will in turn, listen and support you.

As you learn to develop and grow the skill of listening to yourself, even if you make mistakes in the beginning and even if it seems a little crazy in your own mind, the idea of listening to your self. Trust, YOU … the benefits WILL be worth it in the long run.

Regret No More. Life is Wild and Wonderful.

Always Love,
Brenda

 

Never Shall I Spend Another Moment Ungrateful

On November 8, 2017, in BLOG, by brendajohima

Have you ever felt stuck? Really stuck? Paralysed with fear, unable to take any action at all? The kind of anxiety where, no matter what anybody else says or does, you don’t feel that you can change? The type of fear where no self-help book or video or famous person saying famous quotes can help you change? I mean stuck. Where no amount of massage, meditation, yoga, breathing, diet or exercise … nothing, shifts it?

Well that was me. Stuck, for days, weeks, months, years?  … in several areas of my life. I don’t recommend it to anybody. Generalized Anxiety Disorder, P.T.S.D., Fibromyalgia and more, shall no longer have control over me.

Good-Bye Stuck.! Good riddance.

Stuck … Until just moments ago. One email correspondence, or a lifetime of moments building up, prior to that (we will never know) … just changed me.

It is time for Brenda to Get. Back. Out. There. and to Leave. The. Past. Behind.

An entire world (and ocean) awaits with new people, opportunities.

It’s time to wake up, to get up, to get back out there, and to be thankful for it all, along the way.

Gratitude amongst other skills and daily routines shall get me to where I want to go. I shall never spend another moment ungrateful. There is so much in life to be grateful for and I am surrounded by it each and every day. It’s time to take noticing internally, to the external, and to make it a way of life.

Always Love,
Brenda

 

Rebounder Rebound My Life

On November 8, 2017, in BLOG, by brendajohima

I attended the Outward Bound Women of Courage program in the mid-1990’s and it was a wonderful opportunity and I highly recommend women apply for this program as it’s still in operation. Truly amazing.

I chose the snow option back then, which meant I was hiking and backpacking in snow, in the Pemberton area. And yes, I completed the one night solo under a tarp with glaciers and avalanches around me in the faraway distance.

To make your own cover for the night with a tarp, a shovel and not much else, was a challenge but I actually really enjoyed it. We were given some nuts to eat and orange crystals to mix with snow in a water bottle, to have fluids. (I’m sure we had other food but I can’t really remember to be honest)

A couple of women (at least) went back to base camp in the middle of the night as they couldn’t tolerate the solitude and fear. Nobody judged them, only love and support. It was wonderful. Everyone was accepted no matter where you were in your journey.

I stuck it out and loved the black of the night with the star-filled skies. That mountain silence, you never forget.

By morning, it was amazing to wake up totally alone in the sunshine and blue skies, to the vastness and beauty that surrounded me. I could hear avalanches go off in the distance but knew they were far far away and that I was totally safe.

But I digress. When I applied to the program I was living in Northern BC and with the snow and ice in the rural location I was living in, it made it difficult to get to the gym and pool daily and I had to train in order to undertake Outward Bound.

So I purchased a rebounder from a local massage therapist who sold them. Best thing I ever did! This wasn’t one of the cheap copies yet I can buy now, it was one of the original rebounders, a very expensive one back then. (I won’t name the brand as I’m not promoting it)

I still have it all these years later and I’ve kept it in good shape. Love it.

Only what is it doing just sitting there without me on it? A rebounder without me bouncing on it?

Long story short, to prepare for Outward Bound, I used the rebounder almost exclusively to change my life. I started with 1-2 minutes and then 5 minutes only.

At the peak of my training I was on the rebounder 1-2 hours per day. Bounding, walking, running, jogging; there’s so much you can do on them.

The rebounder my main training as cycling wasn’t an option with the inclement weather and walking was a challenge with ice and deep snow where I lived, never mind the logging trucks that went by regularly that scared the heck out of me.

So you CAN train entirely on a rebounder and have success. I had NO problem completing, and even thriving in Outward Bound, physically. The training was transferable and I didn’t know for sure if it would transfer to mountain / hill climbing.

So today, I am getting back on that rebounder to help change my life in other ways.

It’s time to rebound back into a full and rich life.

Stay tuned.

Always Love,

Brenda

(and P.S., yes that’s one of my own original paintings in the background 😉

 

Blogging Daily

On November 8, 2017, in BLOG, by brendajohima

So how is it going, blogging every day? (she laughs to herself)

It is going exactly as I expected. Committing to writing, blogging, composing, crafting and publishing a blog post a day isn’t easy and I did not succeed. I applaud full-time bloggers who write for a living and create original content each and every single day, day after day. I have tried this before and quit, many times. What is different this time? I am committed to keep on doing it and to keep on trying. I fell off track and here I am back at it again. Yay! Me.

Writing and publishing something, even if only a few words, a poem or a photo, each and every single day is a good daily practice, IF one does it for oneself, for healing, learning, self-awareness and personal growth. Hopefully the spinoff over time is, you get to help other people in the process.

Add writing and blogging to the daily practice of exercise, eating healthy, meditation, breath work, stretching and taking photos … what an amazing life it will be.

For now, I write for myself, because as Seth Godin says, there is nothing to fear, because in the beginning, nobody is reading you anyway 🙂

Put it out there, jump.
Just Be Brave.

Always Love,
Brenda

 

Don’t Wait For Them

On November 7, 2017, in BLOG, by brendajohima

Have you ever wasted your time on a relationship? And I mean, wasted. Chasing, hoping, wishing, waiting, trying and giving them chance after chance after chance … of course, most of us have. We usually want the people we love, to stay in our lives.

IF I could teach younger people anything at all, it would be, do not follow in my footsteps. As Maya Angelou said, and as Oprah reminds us, “when someone shows you who they are the first time, believe them.” So powerful. So true.

Whether it be family member, friend, college, business owner, any human being … who repeatedly isn’t there for you, show yourself some love and firm boundaries, and walk away. Please don’t wait and wait and wait and try and try and try as I have done all too many times, wasting my precious life in the wings, waiting.

Waiting and trying, it will give you never-ending grief, until guess what? They move on and forward and right past you, leaving you in the dust! Fact. And your life went by while you were waiting and wishing and hoping and trying.

So cry, rage, feel sad and grieve, whatever you have to feel, and then … let. them. go.

Believe them the FIRST time when they show you who they are.

Always love,
Brenda

 

 

Intentional Camera Movement

On November 6, 2017, in BLOG, by brendajohima

Think like a painter.

I do.

I was a painter first, a photographer second. Photography came much later after painting. Or did it?

When I look back in old photo albums, I took a lot of photos as a young girl, and almost all photos were of of wildlife (zoo) and animals and pets. Rarely would you see a human being in my photos. (not much has changed) .:: but I guess you could say that photography came first then? Who knows.

I remember finding an Kodak Instamatic 110 camera, and that was my camera for a long long time. Loved it! I’ve often thought of buying one again just for fun.

Long story short, forward a gazillion years, and I began painting.

No photography happened for a long time, as far as I can remember.

I painted my own line of simple greeting cards. Then much later I went to fine art and design school as became and abstract painter.

I was highly allergic to darkroom chemicals so couldn’t even set foot in the darkroom at school. Photography had to take a backseat until Digital came around.

Now I couldn’t be happier! Digital cameras have freed me to be able to express with photography, but after painting, my way of seeing changed along with my way of feeling.

I saw and felt everything through the lens of a painter, and my abstract paintings were fuelled by my prior music background. Music could always be seen in my paintings somehow, whether literally or through motion, movement.

So when I learned about intentional camera movement, it was a perfect fit; combining the feeling of playing music, with seeing though the lens as a painter, then expressing it all through my camera (and iPhone)

I will write more about my love of the abstract in photography and how intentional camera movement / motion plays such a huge part in my photography and healing.

Until then, enjoy one from the archives, this image was made in 2011 via iPhone, using the technique of intentional camera movement. (this image also seems fitting, with all of our beautiful fall colors right now)

Always Love,

Brenda

 

Bloom Where You Are Planted

On November 5, 2017, in BLOG, by brendajohima

Running away from. Resisting. Wanting to be anywhere other than where you are at this very moment, causes suffering and pain of some sort, at some level.

“Bloom where you are planted” is very simple. Stop resisting where you are right now. BE. There. Now. Make the most of it, make it the best you can with what you have.

However, mentally and emotionally it isn’t always as simple as it sounds and can be far more complex than “acceptance” … but it is good in theory for somebody. Insert “lol.” We want what we want and we want it now.

 

 

Sometimes We Feel This Way

On November 3, 2017, in BLOG, by brendajohima

 

When It’s Time To Let Go

On November 3, 2017, in BLOG, by brendajohima

 

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