Good morning! As one who prides myself on punctuality and in past, applauded myself for never missing deadlines … breast cancer has turned all of that (perfectionism and incredibly high standards) on its head and right upside down. I am missing deadlines and I am late and I am not getting things done very quickly,…
Swimming!! I went swimming and floating in the ocean!! The last paragraph will explain why I’m over the top happy! H E A V E N. Bliss. Aaaahhhh. I was in there for a LONG time. The water is very shallow, as Fanny Bay is famous worldwide for oysters. It’s a heavenly warm swimming spot…
It takes as long as it takes. And in this case, to get me back to doing my walking meditations that I did daily, for years and years. You know, it was one of those things that you think about everyday and that you want to do, and and are going to do, but just…
who is this imposter? visiting my body unwelcome guest he brought damaged goods as gifts that never let you forget who you used to be he crawls out from the rubble presenting as me to the public who just sees surface deep but not the unthinkable pain crushing dizzying writhing grimacing never-ending always shifting fireworks…
popping in for a quick update. it has been the day from hell physically. the bone pain today was a 15 out of 10 on the pain scale. unbearable. disabling. all i could do is lie down and writhe around, try to shift or get up and stretch and walk around the house, sit in…
I woke up feeling awesome! And for this moment, this one moment, I’m grateful. Everything really can change in the blink of an eye, in life and in health. **I’ve truly become grateful for the teeny tiniest of moments and seconds.** I always hope these amazing feelings will last, but have learned that with breast…
A HUGE Thank You to Accent Inns Victoria B.C., for going above and beyond to accommodate me, during tough times with breast cancer, and making it possible, as a pet friendly hotel, for my to have my best friend, my buddy, Teddy my standard poodle, with me here in my room. He is my family.…
Actually, I am thankful. Who wants breast cancer? Nobody. BUT. The gifts that have come to me in a multitude of ways, the new friendships that are developing as a result, from strangers I haven’t met, and a new strength and belief in myself, a boost in confidence, bravery and courage I didn’t think I…
Treatment plan (if all goes well and as planned) … They spoke of inserting a picc line or port, instead of and IV for chemotherapy. We are going to try without doing this, even though chemotherapy can cause permanent damage to veins. This is scary stuff! Treatment plan: “only 4 pokes” … meaning: 1. Starting…